We had a not so great week last week. 2 kids sick with strep, one kid pretty badly. My youngest is still fighting it and it's been over a week now. We are getting her tonsils and adenoids out over spring break and this Momma is a little anxious about it as she is my very sensitive child (sensitive momma here too, but she is much more so than even me). One of my children has anxiety about upcoming state testing and this is her time of year to begin to act out. Another child has been having a lot of behavioral struggles and I was getting calls in the middle of doctor apoointments to come and get them from school as they were too angry to ride the bus home and stuff like that. Andy was having to work a lot of extra hours and I was feeling very empty. Then comes Valentine's Day and I had something fun planned...took the kids to Jurassic Quest and they over-sold it to the point that our family had a very hard time enjoying it. The bad news too was that a family of our size to go out and do anything spends a lot of money to do so. I felt like we had wasted all that money, but some of the kids did enjoy it and so I had to realize that it wasn't all for naught. However, my youngest was still not feeling the greatest and although she wanted to go, she was having a lot of meltdowns too to just not feeling the greatest. I told hubby that I needed a break when we got home and we got his Dad to watch the kids while we went to Red Robin for lunch after we got kids happy meals for lunch. We were both on edge and some things were miscommunicated and I wound up fighting tears at the table. This was just not how I had planned Valentine's Day to go. Thankfully, the day eventually got turned around and things were a bit better, but we were still dealing with a lot of illness, meltdowns, and behavioral issues.
The kids were off Monday and we all had a great peaceful day. Just what this Momma needed. I spent a lot of time in prayer and we've used some essential oils that the kids really seem to respond too and I've tried to give myself time to just sit in the quiet and talk to God and asking to see some answered prayers. And I've been giving myself at least an hour every day that the kids have been in school this week just to sit and relax and focus on what I want to do so that I feel that more rested. God has given me a great week this week. We've gotten a possible piece of the puzzle from the psychiatrist about the behavioral issues and hopefully the next 4 weeks of monitoring will bring us answers. I'm praying over that one. My youngest is still fighting her illness and she is getting a lot of extra cuddles to keep her still as when she is more active, she starts fighting nausea and coughing and throwing up. Still having to give her zofran every day to fight throwing up. I just want her to feel better.
To top all of this off, I came down with a raging yeast infection. I can't tell you the last time I've had one of those. But, it's horrible. I put myself in the tub after I got all the kids to school today and soaked in a hot tub of water with a couple essential oils to help soothe. I also listed to my podcast of "At Home with Sally" and really felt like God was just allowing me to rest in Him for a little bit. Self Care is so important. I know this, yet it's always the first thing to slip when I get overwhelmed with juggling the kids issues. I let myself just slip to the backburner. Mommas...let me speak directly to your hearts...we can't put ourselves on the backburner. We have to take care of ourselves first so that we can serve our families. I had the vision in the bathtub of just cuddling right up to God and letting Him fill me and comfort me and fill all the emptiness and voids that I feel. I came out of the bathtub feeling so much better. Please don't forget your self-care. And most of all, don't forget to spend time with God...He knows what we are fighting and all that we have on our plates and He wants to bring us rest.